The darkest mind

There is something in the dark which I like 

There is something in the dark where I find peace... But wait is my mind in peace no so what's that I think!!  there is something in the darkest corner of my mind where is someone who wants to scream loud and tell everyone that noooooo i want to be free please take me back where I belongs to... There is someone in the dark who is my closest one who talks to me in every scary night but who is he or she I don't know but there is someone who is with me and doesn't allow to get rid of all this .

sometimes my mind is like I'm falling

down and down from the highest 

but at the same time just can't touch the ground.Just falling and falling deep

In the dark lost and lost and 

I can't understand what's this...!??

I always find my self sitting on the terrace in midnight and thinking what am I doing with myself can someone rescue me from this if yes than when will !!! 

Or “I wish I had someone who would observe me silently, who would capture all my habits and quirks, and still love me. Who can see my all weakness and strength but still love me.who see all my crazy and psycho mind things but still be with me..... 

But wait !!! Am I truly want this or it's just my imagination I just want me the real me but who the fuck I'm now I can't understand but I know one day I'll recognise who I am and I'll be the best version of mine till I just want to find my self and I'll.....  

 In Virginia wolf's lines...

"For now she need not think of anybody. She could be herself, by herself. And that was what now she often felt the need of to think; well not even to think. To be silent; to be

alone."